Very rarely do I allow myself to label a whole day as bad because of circumstances, but today mightve been a bad day. Ah, i hate complaining. Im really in a funk. I just havent felt like myself these past couple days. Since saturday. Been eatin like shit, not talkin to anybody. Just..runnin on fumes tryna get thru the day. Which I hate because I feel like everyday is a blessing & Im wasting time.
I was ok when i wokeup. Felt a lot better than yesterday. Did cardio, ate breakfast, went to work in a good mood. But i could barely sleep last night because I was itching. Pretty sure I have lice. & the bed bugs have relocated & they found me. So all effing day i was just at work dying to go home & get something for my head & some cortiszone or something. I hate bugs. so much. & i cant stand itching. I feel like a crackhead. Ive been eating my feelings all day,
havent talked to anyone because honestly, im getting eaten alive in this world. everyone is worried about themselves. they only pay attention to the ppl that do them dirty & the ppl that care & try, get ignored. like ppl just deserve that shit. Im like..just getting taken advantage of & for granted left & right. im tired of being available to ppl 24-7 for their bitching & complaining, i keep mine to myself. I know i dont need anyone to take care of me, God does that for me. so i have the tim e to help others. i feel like thats what i was put here to do. but they dont appreciate it. im always here for anyone who needs me i feel so obligated. but these motherfuckers, im lucky if i even get a text back. i wanna get
WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE??
tatted on my fucking forehead. anyway, i am blessed. I know God sees me. he sees the good i do & he sees these neglegent self centered individuals suckin the teet dry. I know He will come 7 rejuvenate my spirit cause its a little broken right now.
pretty sure that was a rant. normally i dont like to partake in rants. but eff it.
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