popular people

i need to make a vow right now for the rest of my life
to stay away from them
when i walk in a room, when i view the world as a whole
any industry im ever in
when i see the people at the top
i need to just tell myself i am above them because i am only trying to impress God
well..not even that. that we are equals. and i am not to worship them
or give them any credit.
this lady is exactly like the first one.
people at the top make me feel like shit. i dont evenw anna be in this world anymore. i wanna get in shape for my own benefit and because i like looking good but seriously otherwise forget it because it has consumed me and taken so much joy from my life for so long. ill take a few years off and build my own fan base. NOT including "people in high places".
i have always been such a kiss ass.
so eager to please
always downplaying the gifts that god made ME to make ME special..
just to fit in among people
but there are people that love me
and there are people that dont
im a good freaking person
i may not be perfect
im not nor will i ever be Jamie Eason
but im me
i have a LOT of talents that the right person is going to benefit from very much one day and i am DONE being underconfident. im done.
im done kissing ass im done
i dont have to
i AM smart. i AM sttractive i DO have a good body
i have a fantastic personality and lots of ideas and good things to give to the world i dont have to be insiecure because HE so loved the world..
Im done. from now on im going to allow myself to be confident and love myself and be happy. if i dont like my body then i will change it. but its not disgusting.
i am me. i dont have to compare myself to anyone else and i dont need anyone elses approval im DONE!
cause when you chase people run IM DONE CHASING! i have all i freaking need i am DONE.