loyalty

i hate how i do this thing.
where i decide i like a person. then i latch onto them like freaking old yeller.
& i dont talk to anyone else.


i care about this fool. smh
he does me foul consistently.
as usual im invisible.
i been liked him like STRICTLY off personality, before i even seen em
& he keeps testing me.
now he just doesnt even see me. & its reallynot ok.
all these other groupies & bops i wanna slap em like
get off his shit you dont even know em
all i wanna do is know everything about him

i love his effing voice. & everything he says
& his mannerisms are so adorable
sometimes i do wanna rape him cause hes sexy i wont lie
but most the time i just wanna be around em
cause hes beautiful & hes funny & hes smart & i feel like were alike somehow

and hes BIG lol i like layin with em cuz hes big & im little haah i feel all warm & cuddly hhaha

but alas, im retarded. because as usual this boy knows not that im alive.

he doesnt see that i am the one that really likes him for who he is.
& i am really turned off by the whole status thing, the 38594867 diff flirtacious relationships, & all that other shit. but id over look it. easily.

i mean fuck.
&i cant tell em. i just cant yall.. like foreal. last time i told a nigga how i felt he DIPPED. i wnt hve it again.