who the fuck are you

frontier fiesta was fun
its hard to know.. who im still "speaking to" or not

i met hese girls that i been tryna reunite with from this one night at the club..like 2 months later it was like a love story lol the remembered me too

but...ive seen some tweets...and ppl just been bein real "honest" [the new word for messy and rude] wih me lately..
ive observed a lot of friendships gone sour in some of my acquaintances lives as well & i realized.

i am going to school with mean petty children. i do not know why nor do i care WHY they dislike me cuz iv done nothing but be myself..& not take shit off ppl that everyone else takesshit off of.

ive become like this poor little victim. tryna do right. tryna be the bigger person.

fuck bein the bigger person when these whores r tryna make me feel small.
since when do i give a fuck about who liks me or why?? when i think aout it half these bitches i just was nice to for politics. fuck a politic now. weight off my shoulders.

who am i? am i this persons friend? is that my identity? my clique? or a certain quota of ppl that dont have a problem with me? no.

i am sandra michelle parish born in houston texas 20 years old. i like art & music. i like colors in my head but i am obsessed with black. i am also obsessed with hearts and emotions.
when i see everyone doing one thing i do the opposite.
ex. colors r in right now. so i wear all black.
im not "force"ing anything anymore. these motherfuckers are wierd, attention hungry, & rude & im but tired of it.
im not required to be friendly. i dont need anymore friends than i have & i dont need anyone at all but the good Lord & my family im blessed to have friends.

if u do not like me FUCK U omg who gives a got damn. im done man.

no more niggas that think theyre to good for me. no more "cliques" nothin. no more. u like me yay u dont BYE. point blnk period im not workin for shit man im a good ass friend & a good ass girl for any nigga that wants to treat me good same applies to females. but i gain absolutely nothng from ppl i dont like liking me. or anyone for that matter. i came to college to get an education.

fuck the bullshit im done. no more

boy i like..LIKED. hear he likes MY FRIEND. said he didnt like me, so he could talk to her. no more lookin real dumb for a dude. im here thinkin this ones worh workin for newsflash anyone who doesnt see value in you as a human being never will.

why cant i have colors in my letter anymore??

anyway. i like to make others happy. & they suck it out of me like a leach im done. no one deserves more than someone whos feelings for them r unconditional & wants to make them happy. no one. & no one deservs less. not even me. who the fuck are you????


no more. it is what it is and its not what its not from now on. & u will see the change, "haha".

i realize now...im not who i used to be. couldntgo back if i wanted to and i dont. i LIKE who i am now. cuz its me. thats the risk you take when u decide to be real. you risk ppl calling you fake. but this is me. & theres nothing fucing wrong with it there is something wrong with you. fcking sheep in a herd.

iv got love in my heart swear i just wann give it away. but im not. not anymore not for free. cheers to new beginnings. & to the new me. mark my words.

jesse james