a LOT of SEX

and I mean a lot. 5 times last night and once this morning. thats the most ive ever had one time me and g did it 4 times but i mean. idk i couldnt stop. he initiated the first time. kind of. but the rest was me haha he said he likes it lol we probably got 4 hours of sleep but i wasnt tired i got up at 8 and we just cuddled and kissed and then we had sex again then at 10 i cooked him breakfast. its nice to have someone to do stuff for. im going all out for his bday. i know we havent known eachother that long. and he most likely wouldnt do all this for me. but thats not why im doing it. in truth idk why im doing it. guess i just like doing stuff for him and i want him to have a badass bday. i got em a new wallet that should be in the mail. and im getting a dress and sexy undies and a vibrating penis ring hahah and some dickaliscious probably. show him some cool stuff haha and were going to macaroni grill and then to see insidious 2. im excited i think its gunna be a really fun night. hes going to see the weekend on the 24th and he invited me to go with him and his friend chris. thought that was nice :) and yesterday out of the blue he told me he missed me via text :) so i definitely think he is starting to kind of open up and like me more. hes on me the whole time when hes here which i love and we kiss a lot. he kisses my head and my shoulder and just gives me good ass regular kisses and then we'll makeout for hours which i loooove. everytime i think about us kissing or him touching my face or the faces he makes when we have sex it like gives me chills. i just think he is like the most attractive guy on earth. i mean i feel so lucky his ex is crazy. his body is amazing. i love his hair and his face and his pretty eyes and his smile. he's starting to figure out how to turn me on we're both getting more comfortable which is great. he like..gets all...idk like ... aggressive he'll put his hands around my throat well just one and idk why but i fucking LOVE that shit lol mmmmmm. and he grabs my ass and just like we just kiss and look at eachother lol idk. if me being so obsessive doesnt get on his nerves and he doesnt mind laying in the bed with me allllll the time just watching tv and kissing and looking at eachother (plus sex) then he must really like me. and it is a drive i know he hates driving but he comes anyway. yesterday i told em we wouldnt see eachother til friday and he thought i was implying that it would be because of him and he was like what who said we werent gunna see eachother im off tuesday and thursday so im seeing you lol but i meant because of school and work i open all week. but i decided to skip school today so we could see eachother one more time. i know i gotta get on my game. cant make the same mistakes as last year. he's so worth it though man he just makes me feel so good. kissing him feels freaking amazing.it sucks cause i cant tell em cause i dont want to scare him. im praying that he's kind of..starting to get in deeper too. i can't always tell. well i know he is but idk if we're on the exact same page or some approaching the same chapter. idk. i was thinking it would be cool if he would ask me to be his gf this weekend especially with everything im doing for his bday. idk it feels right im not doing it to impress him. i just want to. it feels like we're together and i think he thinks of me that way so i really dont care about the title and all that. its not a big deal. one day when he asks if i want to be facebook official though, cause he knows like how i feel about it, ill know hes really starting to like get attached. he thinks he wont blah blah but i know me im not too bad at this people get addicted to me too so you never know. he didnt come over the other night but yea he was here last night. and friday. idk we just go together like two peas in a pod. we have so much fun but he can also be like all lovey dovey too. and he thinks im the sweetest girl. which i am ;) LOL but anyway yea idk. its a good place right now. im just like yayyyyy sex on the reg haha i just..idk man hes so damn attractive i just couldnt stop lol he was making fun of me this morning but i know he likes that shit. he told me he liked the way i jumped on him the other day. definitely becoming more like..sharing our thoughts with eachother and like being very sexual which i like. its just nice to have someone.t his weekend is gunna be awesome to cause friday will be my 5th day of 2 a day cardio. ill probably just..have to get it all in before work cause once i get off its all about him :) im off satuday too so idk whatll b going on then im assuming he will be with his family cause its his actual bday which is fine. anyway but yea i love everything about this kid. he just gets sooo close to me. and his eyes are so pretty. and i loooooooooove the way he kisses me and he touches my face. he acts like he doesnt feel what i feel. like the kissing is just kissing and when he looks at me hes just looking at me but i know he feels good as hell too or he wouldnt do it so much. things have gotten much better since our first little bump in the road. its really nice to have a ppartner in crime and someone to talk to about everything and just...idk the physical part is excellent. i feel soooooo lucky to be around him i really hope he feels the same. im bout to look so good on friday. i wanna kill it at this show. mostly for me. to do what i dream of for once and see how good my best is. show everyone including myself im not full of shit. but i still want to be a bad bitch. i want to look amazing i want him to be like wow you really know what youre doing you look so good. i want him to see like how popular i am and how well i do and be so proud. i want him to be like posting on facebook like look at my girl killin the stage. i dont want to get my hopes up but damnit if i bust my ass and get as lean as possible there is really no reason why i couldnt place. i want top 5 in my class first callouts. i want to DAZZLE. i want to look and feel so hot and have the time of my life and love my body to death and have everyone scared. i just want to feel awesome and for it to be worth it. i have to be super consistent and work very hard and i know it will be worth it.and he will be proud of me my clients will be proud of me and everyone at the show will notice me. i wan t to do it for on ce. i am kind of scared because i wa sonly on my bc for 3 days when we first had sex. and then on the 7th day on my pill i started spotting. PRAYING o dont have to go through this again but God knows my dream he knows my intentions and I know he has my back. im going to have a lot of kids one day :) i think it would be funny if he were to fall in love with me and then in time all of a sudden hes on my page and feels like he wants me to have his kids. i told em one day the tables are going to turn and hes going to see what i see. i can see him telling his friends man shes wifey material. i can see him like really realizing what he has and a pray its not through something stupid. i was literally about to put "i do love him" GIRL NO YOU DONT. you just met the kid! but. i could. and i feel like we're on our way there. what we have is very good. happy :) i never thought we'd be like we are. but we are. being without eachother is sad and being with eachother is fun. and we're always there for eachother and we see the good in eachother and thank you God. :) yay!