dear you

two posts in one day geez. i wish i could tell you this to your face but i wont i know it would ruin things. well, yea i guess. its fine that we dont spend a bunch of time talking about how we feel cause i can FEEL how you feel and thats enough for me. ill try to play it cool ;) i know im going to wow you on your bday and youll be amazed and very happy. and one day i know youll return the favor. i know you do what you can for me. youve done more than A ever did. three dates you always pay and you always just do what makes me happy youre not selfish at all your sweet. i can tell that you're starting to like...trust me and let me in a little. i feel like i have more collateral now. not a whole lot but more. you definitely care. i mean before you seemed to be PLANNING to like...break away from me after your bday which still might be the case...but i doubt it. especially after your bday. i feel like it would be hard for you at this point to see me less. but i know its going to have to be cut down to like once a week so i can focus on school and my prep. but anyway for now...idk yesterday you told me twice that you liked me. and now i can tell we're getting so much closer. i love it. thursday will be exactly one month since that night you came over and we talked for 5 hours lol gah. idk i just want you to know i mean it with all myheart when i say youre my favorite you really are. you just make me so happy. i think youre the most attractive guy on the planet. everytime i get to see it i still get so excited and just being around you is like the thrill of my life right now. kissing you feels SO good i mean i could look at you forever. i dont know why. its not anything specific about you that is just so impressive to me. i just like you a LOT. everything about you. youre so freaking hilarious. but youre pretty positive still and nice but you can talk shit when its time. youre a good person i know you are. you dont know it...cause youre pretty humble...but you are good to me you make me so happy i feel special just to be with you. everytime you touch my face i feel like a princess. it literally is like being high but better i feel so good. i still get butterflies i feel like i could kiss you forever. and just stare into those pretty eyes and your amazing smile. and you make all these sexy faces. like...mm idk all freaking manly and youre so strong. your body is freaking UH-MAZING. like..i cant keep my hands off you. im getting adjusted to your skin tone and i like it. i like your hair color and how it goes with your eyes and i like how you style it. you just look freaking hot. like a chip and dale. lol your necklace that you never take off. idk the way it rests on your pecs you just look like a freaking model like oh my GOSH. your body. and youre SO stronnnnnnggggg i mean. ah. i love it. youre so.freaking.manly. i feel so...like..idk fragile and shit. youre freaking beautiful everytime i look at you im like mmm my man is fine haha i cannot wait til friday its going to be a good FUCKING night lol just like last night maybe better. and we dont have to work on saturday im going to make you a cake and keep it in the oven and write on it. so excited. im going to blow everyone else out of the water. i know its silly. youre not even my bf and we just started talking i just really like you i dont know why but i cant help it. and as far as everyone else knows i mean i still feel like most people probably think we're dating ...hell idk. yea we havent like "come out" lol cause we're not together and i feel like we will be eventually but idk what thats gunna be like. maybe i shouldnt have gotten you ALL THIS SHIT. but i didnt get it for you cause i want you to make me your gf. or because i want you to be impressed by me or whatever. in truth you might just think im too over the top but i hope not. idk. i just wanted you to have it and to have an awesome bday. i just think really highly of you i hope you know that. its not anything youve done or any specific traits about you, though there isnt a whole lot i dont like about you...at all. and nothing i would change...i just wanted to do nice things for you just cause. i want to be a big part of your life. if you ever wondered. thats all. i want to be the #1 person by your side for everything. i want to talk to you everyday and know for sure im going to see you on a regular basis. i want to know everything about you to the point people can ask me stuff if they cant get a hold of you. i want to know your family and all your friends i want to be a HUGE part of your life and you mine. i dont want to just be a facebook title ya know thats no big. i want you to know that i really really really care about you and i want you to be happy and okay. i LIKE taking care of you because its fun thank you for letting me and making me feel needed instead of just..like im doing too much or am annoying. i know boys SHOULD appreciate what i do and let me and just..let me be that girl. but they normally dont. thank YOU for doing what you should. yes you can be an ass, but for the most part i know youre just kidding. in reality you are always very sweet to me. today when you were like yeah right you kind of ruined my mood. but your response to my response made me feel better. idk. i feel like if i can get to your heart i wont regret it because you seem really reliable and like you're just a good dude. i like where this is going. i see you like...inviting me places in the future. saying we can match at the texans games. feels like you want to continue to spend time with me instead of pushing me away. i just feel like if you found the right girl you would be wonderful. youre wonderful now. you and i may value different things but you are all of the things I value. and I hope you know if you do feel how I feel and if we are both falling down that road.. i will be your biggest cheerleader. i will always be there for you in the clutch and i'm down to do anything with you (not involvin g heights)> you may think your potential lies in bodybuilding and it might i will 100% support you in that and i think we would be an awesome ass power couple. but as you age if you dont change, i know you would make a great husband for someone. youre sweet and romantic and thoughtful. and if we did stay together that long i know once you mature you'll be a wonderful dad to whoevers children you may have. i cant necessarily picture all of that. theres still a lot we don t know about eachother but i want to know more. we seem to have gotten out eachothers weaknesses and we;re okay with them so far. ah. i just like you SO much. i cant wait to surprise you with all of this i know youre going to be so happy. and you do deserve it. something inside of you is very good idk what it is but i sense something very valuable in you. just know if you ask me..ill say yes :)