conclusion

ive learned a lot
& i see the reasons for a lot
i know everything has its season
& for me..this is a DROUGHT
but i just wanna say that while youre young
im not a grownup. im not 100% mature.
& my desires are that of the average youth
i think its okay & its just a fact
having said all that,
life is boring without friends & boys
its what makes college fun
school & God & family should come first
but getting all dressed up & going out to impress someone
thats fun
i think ive come a long way with being present
but ive also just been
poutting life off
trying to learn it all right now
be all wise
& grow up too fast
i was trying to save myself from pain
but hey, you take the good with the bad
God gives me strength when i have to endure pain
theres no reason to hide & not take any chances
although i am convinced im not gunna meet anyone new here which freaking sucks
theres got to be SOMEONE i dont already know
sigh.
when you dont have any friends to go out with, nothing fun to do
& youre hdiing cause someone ruined your reputation
& you dont like anyone
& no one likes you..
it gets boring
its okay when i have something to destract me
i guess i just need to do what i say im gunna
cause there would b a lot of chjasing to do
if i gave in to my need to be social
i pray God gives me something fun soon
but i have to be patient
sigh. seriously though, right now
thats what you live for. boys. friends.
waking up and having FUN
this will be the last chance i ever get to live this life
so why not actually live it
life is boring without boys.