who am i??!!

so. idk what the heck i been goin thru tonight
had an amazing thanksgiving with some ppl
that im somewhat related to? family friends idk
but it was so much fun
so glad we went
but this girl wanted to get her lips pierced
which made me want to get mine pierced
i even almost drove to 420
its so wierd when i get in those moods.
then all of a sudden i wanted to cut my hair
i guess its one of those moments.
idk. who the heck am i
& its gunna take so long for me to grow my datgum hair out
am i that prissy pretty girl?
or am i the hardcore punk chick
i was soooo loody confident when i cut my hair & had my piercings
not in padre. at first.
but like most of the time. that i remember
idk
i think i been self conscious for a minute
'at least when i went out i felt swagtastic
now ifeel like i have no swag
i dont turn heads
i look so plain 7 regular
tryna..idk blend in?
why did i cut my hair in the first place was i happy with it?
do i like how i looked with it?
im so confused right now
God please help me
give me confidence let me know what to do
cause if i cut my hair again its going to take months to grow back to this point
if im just patient & wait a fw more months instead i could have a bob again
or just..longer hair
but either way, i wanna go out
do i wanna go out with my hair down & curly?
do i wan my hair down & curly ?
idk what i want
i cant keep makin drastic changes everytime i feel wierd
like..its like sometimes i eel like one person
sometimes i feel like another.
& its gettiong old.
God please help me.
everytime i go out i dont feel..confident
idk which ones me?
the long haired pretty girl
or the short hair rock girl?
i dont know : /