good day!

tests out the way.
not too confident about either but i did the best i could
sometimes when you drop your balls to go chase a boy
its hard to get back juggling
but i tried
& i prayed
hopefully God will grant me grace & ill be able to keep my grades. if not, ill fight to pull them back up.
been trying to just be where i am today & just focus on the task at hand.
for the most part its been easy
i still feel socially withdrawn
but eh, lonely is not the word
just wierd i guess
& now i had like a strange random moment where i would normally cry
cause i feel unorganized & dont know what to do with some spare time
but i didnt. im gunna workout
i need to ill go home after
all i have to do today is turn in my biliography & my articles for the week
then ill be caught up
& if i stick with my faily tasks template, i wont fall behind again, ill stay mostly ahead. which is what i PLAN to do
also, diet is going well so far
i dont mind it
eff food i wanna be ripped.
the boy that i told you about, that kept checkin on me last week
stopped
didnt even text me today after we had class together
i bet he heard
whatever, those a holes will pay for what theyre doing
& im not around it so forget it
ive dealt with much worse scandalism
idk what will happen with the whole social thing
i plan to find other ways to occupy my time
maybe make some new friends elsewhere
or have friends..idk..elsewhere lol
but im ok by myself
just gotta find ways to occupy spare time that i enjoy
i keep thinking about my hair & how long its gunna take to grow
i just want it to be generally long, like medium length
after that it goes by fast
but shoot, the way time flies nowadays
ill wakeup one day & itll be there. no worries
im going to wear it up like..idk..forever.
i want it out of my face & i feel like ppl dont need to be looking at it
i dont wanna attract attention, i know..go figure
i think deep down im wanting to have like this come back
where ive been gone so long & randomly come back with long hair & a new attitude
idk if i can hold out that long
actually. i dont doubt it lol
i am loving this.
i cant think of one single occasion where i would need to remerge
i PLAN to..somewhat after christmas break
or at least reopen my fb account
until then, i feel like im still... [to be continued]