God's Progress

wow, Hes brought me so far.
been tryna go to Lakewood for a year. I went last Sunday.
I dont ever wanna miss again.
finally texted my friend to meet me there. I love it!
I went tonight too. I just wanna be at church all the time.
Tonight it felt so good when he asked "Who wants there life to change right now?" and I didnt raise my hand.
I dont have any requests. Nothings bothering me. Life is awesome
its how I feel. i feel God inside me. I feel his love
now instead of pursuing the love & approval of man,
which has been my lifes battle
I seek him. But unlike man
when i seek Him, I find Him. He welcomes me
he rewards my faith
I dont have to bite my tongue because He loves me too
& he welcomes my praise
it feels so good.
all the time.
when it starts to go away, i just pray & he comes to my rescue.
i feel so positive. & blessed.
Joel said we have royal blood in our veins because Christ is king
so i hold my head up now
i know im beautiful in Gods eyes
I dont have to search or want anymore
i feel great. I dont need anything
I got a 100 on my math test. I am excited to make my new schedule
havent struggled dieting in a WHILE
i feel so great. so excited to go home & just spend time with family
felt like i worked so much for so long, now is my time of Jubilee
i love God. I listen to christian music at home & in my car
got a book at Church called "The Practice of Godliness" so i can learn more about Him and how to be more like Him. & it really helps.
everythings different. im different.
i dont cry sad tears anymore. i dont miss the devilchild.
sometimes i wish i didnt talk to his cousin because then hed be totally gone from my life & i hate hearing his name
but I know ill be okay & he benefits from me
i know it is my duty to help people
so i can. I just want the devilchild.. idk.
everytime i have a little hope for him, he betrays again
it gets worse & worse
7 im so glad God saved me from that because he is the worst ive ever dealt with
he couldve hurt me worse than he did.
anyway, im doing amazing. Thankful & blessed
I see stars & light for the rest of my life
ive NEVER felt this good
not by the hand of man or even of my own accord
im always alone & im not even lonely
I know i wanna finish school & get my PhD but other than that
im not like..reaching for anything
im right here, right now, chillin
i watch movies & snuggle in my bed
I sleep beautifully
I eat for my health not my mind
it doesnt wander as much AT ALL
& i know that all my pain was worth it to find God & walk with Him
what could be better than this :)