help me let em go

God just helpe me let em go.
when i look at his pics now. and his videos
hes already got his whole life, i dont fit
before, idk when you both like e/o you make adjustments
it just happens
you meet their friends
yall meet halfway
they just include you
its the intertwinement of lives
when youre apart it all seems so complicated
and im like what was i thinking? how did i think this would work
this is just a guy you liked that showed you some attention
thats about it
and we didnt even make it into the new year
if it was gunna work why would it break down so early
he did this. not me
i fought to keep it
its what he wanted
hes not even like that
hes not romantic
i keep going thru my memory, reliving mo0ments to see what i saw in him
what made me think we could be all this
ididnt draw the conclusion out of thin air
it was the old him
he WAS sweet
he always let me win
hed give me my way to make me happy
he spoiled me
we had amazing times together
i guess mostly when we were alone but at the plex that was fun
idk
i miss that. that was a LONG time ago tho
i a LONG time ago
LONG
almost a month. :( wow, its been THAT long. yea. it has. that loong since we were doing good & that long since weve even seen eachother
and he doesnt even miss me
gosh, yea girl
he sure did like you
psh
do you want a guy that wont tell you he misses you?
that will never gal you
that starves you for affection
he just led me on. sigh
idk what the deal is. all i know is i gotta keep moving toward getting over him
God just help me let em go its for my own good
cause if i get my hopes up
thinking hes gunna come for me
and save me
and ...the same thing that always happens
happens,
its gunna hurt worse the second time
it always does
i cant give him the upper hand
they dont use it to fix things
they just take it and i feel dumb
i cant give anymore
i wanna be with him. but i cant have what i want can i?
i want his heart. more than anything
but i cant have that
so God just help me be strong & let him go