the believer

ive lost touch with the believer. I just have to say I believe that no matter what happens with the challenge I will be okay and God will help me do what I need to do to compete and do my best. and I believe that corey has feelings for me like he always has and if I leave him alone all week he will miss me and I will see him this weekend. but I also know I need to start believing in myself and my worth and giving myself more value in general with everyone in every relationship everyday. and I need to accept how I look and know that I am beautiful inside and out and I shouldn't have to compete with anyone else. if putting my best foot forward when I go out helps with this then so be it. God please pleas ehelp me. I need you to swoop down and save me from my own negativity and carry me to a higher place of being. please take these broken pieces and mold me into a stronger more confident individual. I don't ever want to hold my head down again.