Words Cannot Express The Amazingness

So...I went over there. I was nervous to all hell. House was HUGE. but yea so...I went in and his mom was right there by the door. like as soon as I walked in a felt right at home. She like shook my hand and hugged me and told me I had a bangin body lol and like that was the start to an amazing time. like we talked for a long time about different stuff. I saw all the cats. I love them theyre all super soft and super sweet. and they like me. like..basically the whole weekend just tore apart the list of reasons I previous wrote about why we couldn't work out. 1)his family.. it is fucked up but they are SO SWEET. His mom is amazing we talked for hours and she said shes never talked to any of his friends that long. she really likes me. she says I have a great personality :) we have a lot in common I like her. cat ladies rule. im friends with her on fb and not corey lol she wrote me a message for my bday! without ever having met me I just didn't get it though so weird. that would've made my day! but anyway so yea I met his sister she is gorgeous. even prettier in person. his mom gossiped about her bf. I found out why corey really doesn't like him. being in his house I learned a lot about him and like some of the stuff he does and says, why he does it. but yea his family is awesome. I don't give a shit about his dad or step mom after what his mom told me. so. far as im concerned im done meeting family lol anyway so yes we like hung out watched Netflix. obviously we had sex. like a bunch. at night twice I think. no just once. it was like pitch black and we were about to go to sleep then things got frisky. he is so damn sexy. im using him as my motivation to get fine because im going to be big time in his shadow SOON if I don't get my shit together. and I need to start busting ass and dieting hard to lean out. I might as well consider myself in contest prep mode. 16 weeks is going to fly by. im definitely inspired hanging out with him and seeing him always get his meals in and get up for cardio so early. even when we didn't get that much sleep. I love it. but yea it was like pitch black and felt so fucking great and I was trying to be quiet cause I ddint want to be loud in his moms house with the tv off and everyone trying to sleep. gah like our sex life has gotten amazing. I remember in the beginning it was fast and hot but like not..idk..he was always great but its just gotten so much better with time. ive learned to appreciate all of the little nuances and I think he has too. hes just like..so much closer to me and feeling his skin on mine and all his body heat and like how he breathes and the faces he makes and I just love it. its like his dick got bigger too to be honest lol it wasn't ever big but now its like legit. idk I just..i love like every freaking second of it. and like he kisses me the whole time and it just feels awesome. I feel so alive when im with him. but yea then we went to sleep. ive been making him leave it in. I cant help it. ugh it feels good lol. he can go back to pulling out there were just sometimes I didn't want him to lol but yea anyway so then like he wokeup did cardio let me sleep. and then like when he came back I got up. and ate my yogurt. then we hung out for a bit. ended up going to the store to get me some my fit and some fruit for his sister and super glue. and he paid for my food :) hes great now holy shit like I stopped doing stuff for him completely. im scared to start back up cause I like things better how they are now. but yea soooo anyway and the day before he said we could workout together at iron city and I was like omg yay. ya know? like this was all so new he just let me all up in his world like he never had before. so Aziz came over and we hung out for a bit. they smoked with areeb. yes he made a couple sales while I was there and rolled up a few times. I mean...whatever. and then like while he was outside I would just talk to his mom. and then he was like were all going to go workout so I had my clothes I put them on. gave everyone pumphd. then we went. on the way there Idk . I was just so awake the whole time. I felt every moment. I regret nothing cause I was THERE. my mind was not on anything else. it was awesome. but yea so we went and Aziz I think did shoulders or chest and he was like what are you doing and I was planning to just do my own thing  but he was like you wanna do legs with me and I was like not really haha but I did and honestly I hung in there. we did 4 sets of 20 for everything. and we would take turns I did the same workout as him. he was trying to critique my squat form but he couldn't cause it was perfect lol HA-HA. lol anyway he was sore but I wasn't cause I barely used the weight I normally do. blah. im sure ill feel it tomorrow but I burned like 470 calories in an hour it was legit. but yea sooooooo anyway. that was good then we went home. he smoked again and I talked to his mom and his sister hopped in the convo. I was eating spaghetti and she brought me a fork and knife. his family is sweet. meeting them like this whole weekend blew everything out of the water. I love his family. Aziz is nice. whatever. and I love iron city. what a great gym. It was empty. and homey. and fine! and like..i can hold my own wtf. but yea. then we went back and I was just going to wait out traffic and leave but I didn't leave til 930. so like yea.. like he kept asking if I wanted to go to a movie but we ended up watching bates motel. we had sex in the morning. and then we had sex I think one more time at night. he was like gripping me from behind like sideways and like his face was in my neck and it was turning me on then we started making out. then he just started pulling my pants off and he was behind me and my legs were between his instead of spread and it was just super hot lol it was super juicy and then like he nutted and kept going and it was even juicy-ER. and like just hot he was like kissing me from behind and the whole thing was very sensual. our sex life is just fantastic and its going to keep getting better cause we're both going to keep getting hotter. im going to bust ass this week though just making myself stick to my diet everyday and getting my workouts and cardio in because I wanna be fine too. I want him to be like damn my girl is hot. I want my body to be like irresistible like his is. like amazing. so I gotta work for that. really just lean out cause my ass is on point right now and my legs are coming in. you cant see as much of the definition though upper or lower and especially my midsection cause im not lean enough so I gotta start being more consistent. I could really stand to lift and do cardio 6 days a week. like go ahead and go hard for 16 weeks and look good early. and maybe ease up down the road. but yea and last night when I got in bed he texted me to see if I was home safe. and then I was like night sleeping beauty thanks for everything text me tomorrow and he was like ok I will :) night. MAN I love this boy. like omg. I was so gracious and thankful on the way home just...just wow! ya know. like...the kid is ...idk. so like yea im pretty sure we're together. and idc if were friends on fb or instagram or whatever I don't care! I just care that now I get to see him even if hes prepping. I love goin over there. weve never spent a day together. we never hangout int he daytime. like....he hasn't said he loves me back. and I wont say it to his face only in texts. idk if he believes me but he knows that like...idk...I think he is falling for me. he obviously wants to keep me around. hes let me into his whole life and did all the simple things ive always known had to happen for us to stay tpgether. everything I thought wouldn't workout did. and everything I thought would be uncomfortable wasn't. he DOES care. and he DOES talk about me to people his sister said shed heard a lot about me :) idk. I love that kid to death. I know very few of us get to marry the first person we want to marry. but I would definitely marry corey. hes a mess. but he is aware of things. and he does have somewhat of a plan and I do believe things will get better with time. last night we were sleeping on eachother. like all cuddled up face on face. his face is spikey and heavy so I kept having to move. but like he looked at me and was like hey. and i was like what lol and he was like. "nothing. youre sweet." and i was like "aw youre sweet too. when you wanna be." we just cuddled and snuggled so much he makes me feel so warm and fuzzy and just safe and perfect. he motivates me and inspires me and just makes me feel like i can do anything just by...being there. and in my life. and idk if he knows how much it meant that he finally let me into and included me in his world. especially after everything i said. that he forgave me and stll was so sweet and unselfish. like...maybe it showed him too that he really cared. maybe it was necessary, IM SO HAPPY I APOLOGIZED. omg. to have ot even known all of this could be? wow! Im in awe. I needed the vacay SO bad. now I just feel like a new person. so awesome. thank you God SO MUCH. but anyway yea still. he even like....idk I think he might be considering the possibility of one day living with me. which is crazy but for sure id be happy for that to happen. I think a little bigger apt would be nice the fridge alone isn't big enough for all out shit but you kknow, whatever. later down the road. im just...my anxiety is gone. im at peace. I don't have a doubt or a worry in my mind. and im SO thankful. honestly God like..really he understands me and he always has. I value the one thing int he world that matters, LOVE, and I always has and he values that in me and he stays with me when no one does and keeps me confident in my values and helps me stand strong. and he didn thave to show me magic but he did. and he does. he knows my poor sweet heart just needs to believe In fairy tales and always will and they are real! they are. im not the doubter. im the believer. I cant force it. Im not stupud but I believe that you can change people and things by believing in them. as long as theyre not evil. Langston was evil. and cocky. corey is damaged. he does his best. but this weekend he proved me right after all this time. he is wonderful. and we're coming to an understanding. finally after all this time its starting to be WORTH IT. I love him more than ive ever loved anyone. with a burning fiery passion and getting to be with him...man I don't need a damn ball and a gown and a tiara and people watching and lots of pictures. finally I am ALIVE and can LIVE without having to live through pictures and social media and what people think. and to finally have the gift of actually living these amazing moments. this whole weekend I finally felt it all come together like my heart may have led me to the right place. I feel like he is the one im going to be with. like we cant be apart now. or wont be. not anymore. I love him and everyday with him Is the best day of my life. thank you God. Amazing!