anxiety

yesterday was such a good day. & today i woke up extra happy
went to work happy
but as soon as i step into the doors
it fades
i hate it. & idk why like..i could stand it before
now i hate evrything about it just being there makes me like..negative
i ranted all day. all i did was talk shit
i need to stop gossipping. forever
its going to be hard to stop again
but ill pray for God to help me.
i keep having these anxiety attacks
i dont like a lot of people around me
& when ppl just SURROUND me. all talking, or askingfor something
especially strangers
or people im not close to
i dont like them in my space and i freak
i HATE people right now
i dont want them to be around me
i dont want to give them what they want
i want nothing to do with them
ive been serving people so long
i dont want to anymore
& i feel trapped & overwhelmed. i found a prayer. ill post that next