bored to tears

okay now im noticing.
no one texts. i wont text anyone.
facebooks boring even if i was on it
nothing to do nowhere to go
nowhere i wanna go
all i do is study & work
today was a wierd day
i feel off
and im sick of studying :(
but my grades are the only evidence of any of the hard work i do if i lose them
shit i just dont want to
looked at my boys on fb real quick
just to see their faces
adorable asses
anyway..idk i might go home this weekend
i been thinking bout food all bloody day. but i didnt eat anything i wanted to.
just green beans and almonds that wasnt listed but it aint bad
i know soemwhere deep inside if i am dieting & working out in my sleep
later on ill look up & go HEYYYY I LOOK AWESOME!
and that would b a nice feeling
i work so hard
and so much
i dont see any of the rewards
my whole life is work
i want something to be worth it,
anyway. ok ok i been stalling for 4 hours. ill study now
im bored to TEARS
but im trying to get the reading done then i can watch a movie
if i can watch movies i think ill b ok being antisocial.
though i might go home evry weekend just to be around ppl