everybody plays the fool

have you ever cried.. like when you were a kid
& no matter how hard you try you cant breathe
& all the pain in your heart that you carry from day to day
spills out onto your face like water behind a dam
have you ever cried so much
that you wake up with acne
and you feel so ugly.
have you ever literally felt your heart
being pulled out of your chest w/ the same hands youre dying to hold
or offered it to those hands, and had them slap it to the ground
have you ever been told to drink bleach
by someone for whom you would do so to save them from a similar fate
have you ever put on a song you knew would make it worse
and just let it come down like rain
have you ever just wanted to die
because no matter how much you have to look forward to
you cant see past the iron wall of pain
all you can do is feel
and while youre too weak to fight
someone you love and would die for is trying to kill you
no that would be too kind
they just want to torture you
slowly and let you stand outside your body and watch
its like having a limb ripped off
have you ever cried so hard.
you feel the old you hit the ground with the tears
& you look in the mirror and see someone else
someone new someone hard
have you ever cried the last tear
you will ever cry.
have you ever cried that hard.