psycho-strong

okay, my mind is messed up
my thoughts tell me to do anything & everything to ruin myself
eat stuff im not supposed to eat
be sad over things that arent there anymore
surrounding me with negativity all day
but its not me. its my thoughts.
so eff that./ im gunna fight back.
im going to keep music in my ears. positive music so i will think about that.
instead of my thoughts
read inspirational stuff.
stay as close to God & the bible as i can
& not give into the thoughts.
i talk to myself now.
so why not say positive things
from now on im going to treat myself like i treat others
like a client or a friend
catering to their every need
never letting them settle for less than their best
so when im about to do something i dont wanna do
ill be there for myself to cheer myself on & not let me give up
no one else is gunna do it
fuck it. i wont do it out loud.
but my voluntary thoughts.
the voice that i can control
will be strong.
i can do this. i can fight this negativity.
& i want to be better because of the thingsa ppl have done to me
so when they do see me again
they will think WOW not "aww how sad".
im not going down without a fight.